Currently Playing We Belong Together By Mariah Carey see related

I can't believe it's been 6 weeks since my last entry.  Soooo much has changed since then. It's amazing what can happen in 6 weeks; graduating college, meeting and falling in love with a wonderful person, realizing that the real world sucks and that you'd rather be a student than a grown-up adult, and making serious life choices.  Speaking of what can happen in 6 weeks, I can't believe that I'll be moving back up to Gaithersburg in that short of a time period.  Yes, I finally made a decison.  Yes, I only changed my mind seriously about 1 million times.  But I'm finally somewhat happy with what I've decided.  I'm going to go home for a semester, take a class or two to get ready for nursing school, and see how I like living in the DC area.  If I hate it, no problem. Only 4 months of my life and I'll be back in Charleston.  I'm confident with this decision because now I'll never have to look back and wonder 'what if I moved home?' if I decided just to stay here.  I've spent an amazing 4 years of my life in Charleston and met even more amazing people with whom I share wonderful memories with.  Compared to 4 years, 4 months is a breeze.  I mean, Kate's been in Germany for almost a year.  4 months isn't even half a year.  Plus, with the money I'll hopefully be saving by living with my parents and paying in state tutition, I'll be able to fly down here once a month to see my baby.  If we even stay together. Which is the main reason I'm terrified to leave.  I've never gotten so close to a guy in such a short amount of time. True, I knew Patrick for months before we even started talking, but still.  We make the most random couple, but I still love him with all of my heart.  Leaving him will probably be one of the hardest things I'll ever have to do.  It breaks my heart to even think about it and that's why we're just pretending it's not going to happen until it does.  I'll be here at least through Ashley's birthday and then I'll be back down at the end of the month to go to Jonathon's wedding with Kyle.  We have plenty of time to enjoy our time together.  I just don't understand why we had to start dating right before I move.  I mean, I didn't know I was completely moving until about a week ago, although I've been toying with the idea since Christmas, but there was always that chance that I'd still be in Charleston after graduation. Oh well, I guess things happen for a reason and all that other sentimental stuff.  I'm getting depressed even thinking about this now so I'm going to go eat since dinner.  I hope everyone has a great week (I'll be home for Squirt and X-tina's graduation...I'm so proud of y'all!!) and I'll be back in Charleston next weekend.

Love, Mathie

Currently Playing Here I Go Again: The Whitesnake Collection By Whitesnake see related

Stupid drunk drama Thursday night. Sara says that douche bag has been talking about me but when I confronted him about it, he denied it. Not that I think Sara's lying, not at all. But he's very honest and blunt. Plus, he called me yesterday. But I didn't answer my phone. I'm staying away from that whole scene for a while. I don't know who to believe. I hate this. I hate it so much. I'm so confused and I don't know what to do.

Currently Playing Baby Girl/Stand Back Up By Sugarland see related

I can't believe that in a week, I'll be going to sleep before my last day of class at CofC.  Craziness...

*If* I make it to next week. This semester, more than any other, has seemed to stress everyone out.  I don't know why this is.  But everyone I know has had a shitty last couple of weeks. And even people who aren't in school. Hmm...a thought to ponder.

Life with both douche bag and shy boy have been interesting. I haven't had much spare time to devote to either, so I haven't really dealt with them. With the semester ending, however, we will see.

My randomness for the evening. 'Nite nite. 

Currently Playing Stop All the World Now [Special Edition] By Howie Day collide see related

what a gorgeous day outside...its days like these that make me want to stay down here in the fall. i really wish this was an easy decision to make. coming down here for cofc was such an easy choice, i just wish the post-graduation decision was as easy.

silly boy did call me last night, but i was in the 'brary. i returned his call a little on the late side but he didnt answer. wonder if hell call me back tonight. well see. i still cant believe i ran into him at the brick on sat night. wow.

wow.

alright, im gonna attempt to get some studying done before wesley.  i hope this 3rd girl in our computer sci class group did her shit today so we can be in and out of the 'brary so i can watch the game tonight. go illinois!

peace, mathie

Currently Playing Rich Girl, Pt. 2 By Gwen Stefani, Eve see related

yay for yankees opening night. kick boston ass!

it's amazing how little sleep you need...once you've gotten 10 hours sleep in 3 nights, you feel like you're just kinda floating around. it's cool though, bc shit that would normally bother me doesn't. i kinda just laugh it off.

speaking of which, douche bag came up to me at the bar last night. referred to me as 'mean message girl.' so i told him it was bc he was a douche bag. he apologzied (i think...i wasn't drunk, the last 4 days have blurred together) and said he was sorry he hadn't called me but he hasnt had a day off in 2 weeks. funny, i believe him. bc of sleep deprivation? quite possibly. or bc i had a feeling things weren't over and we'd run into each other again. exactly how we did. but ive been so out of it. hes supposed to call me tonight, but ill probably be in my cave, aka the library.

hmmm...so shy boy and i have hung out the last couple of nights....good times. but last night he was telling his friend about how he doesnt want a relationship. i know hes been hurt in the past bc the friend told me the story. but still, please, don't tell people you wanna talk to me, put your arm around me, and say shit like that. blah.

i dont even know if my ramblings make sense. im gonna nap before my last ever phi mu formal meeting. thank goodness. no offense to my girls, but meetings suck.

hopefully getting some sleep soon,

mathie